I am sick I am so sick that I don't know how to get out of it. Someone gorra help me find the strength in me to overcome my illness. I just wish that the person I chose understands it on his own. Cos me I can"t ask I just  can't.
I want to disapear from this earth. I am so pethetic it kills me whn I think of myself. I am so not the person I wanted to be.

I mess up every thing I want. I don't want friends anymore.
having friends is supposed to be good. I am supposed to get better for myself. and instead each time I choose someone dear to me so that he gives me the strength to do it. I can't do that anymore. I mean loving poeple is the only motive I have to get better. And I can't do that anymore. I have to do it for me. So everytime I find myself with no one, it's a complete disaster. I am loosing myself again. And I don't know how to get it back. I rally hope that no body feels what i'm feeling today, destroyed by my own beleives, left by my best friend. I want any suggestion you guys are ready to give me thanks